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Where I'm at now
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Don't worry, guys, there's no major changes coming, but I figured I'd say something again, since it's been a while.
2020 really was... Something alright, although, I'm gonna be honest.
I'm tired. That pretty much explains the slowdown in my activity as of late. Ever since lockdown started, my mental state definitely went a little downhill. I'm sure it's something we can all understand, when you're either stuck at home or work, the bad thoughts tend to creep up on you and break you down overtime. I don't know if anything's really wrong run me now beyond feeling exhausted, but... Yeah, I'm trying to figure things out right now. I've been fighting with my insecurities a lot, and it's been a journey within, lemme say that.
Still, it's not all doom and gloom, I've been trying to make the most of what's going on right now, like having movie nights with my love, :iconBittyHeart: , playing online games with friends, opening up about my mental issues to friends I trust, all that stuff.
Right now, I'm just trying to stay positive, but even as a guy who's deemed a beacon of positivity by their peers, I'm still prone to negative bouts. I'll figure it out one step at a time, as long as I got the people I love.
That's all I really gotta say, stay safe, everyone, wear a mask if you're gonna go outside, wash your hands, all that stuff.
Also, please don't ask about commissions or trades, like I said, I'm tired.
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Commissions (NOT OPEN YET)
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So, commissions aren't open YET, but I figured I'd at least post prices so people know and to expect. Subject to change of course.
$5.00/500 points traditional no color
$10.00/1000 Traditional colored/Digital no color
$20.00/2000 Colored Digital
For traditional: Third character would be 50%
Digital: Second character would be 50%, since digital pics take longer than traditional
RULES AND GUIDELINES:
Keep in mind, I'm not inclined to accept every commission, especially if I'm not comfortable with the subject.
I can do either male or female, can't be NSFW (furthest I'll go is maybe swimsuits), basically, I'll let you know if the subject makes me uncomfortable, I'm pretty sure it's obvious that kids are a no-no.
I am willing to try new stuff as long as it's not NSFW like nudity, or... Well, anything *messy* to say the least. Again, I'll say something if it makes me uncomfortable.
Doesn't have to be anything fetishy either of course!
I WILL do background checks if I'm not familiar with you, I've heard some bad things about some commissioners.
MISC JUNK
It's probably not gonna be something I do regularly, mainly when I got some idea block, heck, it's why I was doing art trades, which, I still got 2 more left.
List is gonna be 3 max since my motivation isn't really consistent, that and I don't have any urgency to make a quick buck at the moment.
In the off chance I forgot something on my to-do list, lemme know and I'll get something sorted out, I won't lie, sometimes I forget.
$5.00/500 points traditional no color
$10.00/1000 Traditional colored/Digital no color
$20.00/2000 Colored Digital
For traditional: Third character would be 50%
Digital: Second character would be 50%, since digital pics take longer than traditional
RULES AND GUIDELINES:
Keep in mind, I'm not inclined to accept every commission, especially if I'm not comfortable with the subject.
I can do either male or female, can't be NSFW (furthest I'll go is maybe swimsuits), basically, I'll let you know if the subject makes me uncomfortable, I'm pretty sure it's obvious that kids are a no-no.
I am willing to try new stuff as long as it's not NSFW like nudity, or... Well, anything *messy* to say the least. Again, I'll say something if it makes me uncomfortable.
Doesn't have to be anything fetishy either of course!
I WILL do background checks if I'm not familiar with you, I've heard some bad things about some commissioners.
MISC JUNK
It's probably not gonna be something I do regularly, mainly when I got some idea block, heck, it's why I was doing art trades, which, I still got 2 more left.
List is gonna be 3 max since my motivation isn't really consistent, that and I don't have any urgency to make a quick buck at the moment.
In the off chance I forgot something on my to-do list, lemme know and I'll get something sorted out, I won't lie, sometimes I forget.
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I know it's a bit soon to talk about it, but I just feel like it's something I definitely feel like is worth talking about, it's just something that occurred to me.
Beginning of 2018 me is certainly different from end of 2018 me.
I didn't lose weight, I didn't create some life changing device, but I'm definitely different from before.
Back in January, I dropped out of college because in terms of grades, I wasn't doing so well, I was scared of failing, my means of coping were escapism, I wanted to make a video game, but I didn't teach myself how, I always told myself "things are gonna work out" without really doing anything to lead to those changes, it was all inaction.
By March, I was really bummed, disappointed at myself, feeling like my only saving grace was my gentleman behavior, I wouldn't say depressed, just burned out by everything, then in April, I got a job, hoping I could use it as a means of distracting myself from these feelings and earn some money while I'm at it. The most I've done around that time was make an MMD inflation tutorial, which was basically the spark for me realizing I love working with computers, that helped out some people, heck, Imbapovi learned how to make spherical inflation thanks to that tutorial, helped me feel accomplished, can't say it helped everyone though. I did get comments that it wasn't clear enough for some people, like how there should be a video tutorial version, which is completely understandable of course, we all learn differently, heck, I can't read for Jack unless there's some sort of interaction going on like a video or a game. If I make a video tutorial, I'll be sure to let everyone know, anyways, where was I?
Throughout the summer, that's when things were really starting to change, I was debating on what to do with myself: Either go back to college and make things right, or find my own way to reach my goals without college, I decided to try to shoot for the 2nd one, that's the point when I realized that I want to be an IT Technician, just like my dad, whom I idolized for these skills.
Something about computers always filled me with fantasy, they're like digital putty that you can mold into whatever you want, whether it be for useful stuff, or personal pleasures, heck, I get my jollies out of fixing computer issues, it's why I wanted to go into game design, so I can make something for everyone to enjoy, but I wanted to go into IT first as a backup plan. If Game Design doesn't work out, IT will be the safety net. Around Fall, that's when I started to study for the A+ certification, I'm still working on it, not as fast as say Bapho did, whom said he'll help me study, but I'm making progress, heck, I bought 2 courses and have 1 course purchased for me by my work place, so I'll have that to work out, I got 4 notebooks at the moment, possibly 5 soon, 3 are for the courses, 1's for stuff I find online, and the 5th one will be for work studies, because I am now going to be an IT Trainee. Dad's making sure to light a fire under my butt so I don't slack off too much of course.
Still, I remember that moment I applied for the IT position, at first, I was rejected because I wasn't experienced enough, which was fine with, I knew it wasn't very likely, but something about my determination certainly changed their mind. I feel like it was because of my willingness to troubleshoot, I had to fix the card printer at work on my own since IT was gone, surveillance saw it, in a scenario where anyone else would've called for help, I decided to try to fix it myself, thanks to a mixture of determination and a knack for computers, I fixed it (to some degree), at least a temporary fix, I may or may not have broke a rule, but it still spoke about my tech skills, it's not just that of course, but at work, I've pretty much established myself as an unofficial tech guy when IT was gone... At least as far as the rules permit. Lol
Still, it's thanks to that, the IT Manager decided that it'll be a good idea to make me a Technician in training, it's now my responsibility to take in all this knowledge, get that A+ Certification, utilize it at work and keep on going. If I keep it up, then the first step of my lifelong plan can finally commence. It feels good, it really does, like I finally got control of life again, no longer is there any weight of anxiety holding me down from doing anything, I'm no longer scared to fail, nor am I filled with impatience to succeed, just eagerness for the future.
I'm not saying you should drop out of school, I just wanna say that even if college doesn't work out for you, there's always a way, maybe college is for you, maybe it isn't, but either way, as long as you take action for the better, then the scales will tilt in your favor in due time worst that can be done is nothing.
Maybe I will be a game designer like I've always wanted to be, maybe not, I'm just glad I can say I will soon enough, for now though, I'll gladly become an IT Technician as my first step, if I gotta be a technician for a few years, then so be it, I'm ready to get the experience I need.
Altogether, this year's definitely been full of its ups and downs, laughs were had, tears were shed, the death of my grandma has definitely been a heartbreaker, but at least she can rest easy knowing I'm finally doing something with myself rather than moping around like in the beginning of the year. I definitely can't wait to start my IT job in January.
Just had to let these thoughts out, figured it'll make for a decent inspirational story, even if it feels really cluttered, I've just been writing as I think. Lol
OH!
Probably should address this, since I've gotten questions about it, but I don't plan on taking Commissions/Art trades quite yet, I'm trying to figure out how to do it, I got like... I think 1 with one of my friends, he knows who he is, that frozen dude from the northern country, but other than that, I'm just sorting out my schedule. If you got any suggestions, I got a suggestions journal you can comment on, no promises I'll do it of course.
As for commissions, just a heads up, they might be a one at a time thing, and I'll do little background checks for PayPal ones to avoid any incidents of course.
Welp... That's that.
Hope everyone's enjoying themselves and stuff!
Beginning of 2018 me is certainly different from end of 2018 me.
I didn't lose weight, I didn't create some life changing device, but I'm definitely different from before.
Back in January, I dropped out of college because in terms of grades, I wasn't doing so well, I was scared of failing, my means of coping were escapism, I wanted to make a video game, but I didn't teach myself how, I always told myself "things are gonna work out" without really doing anything to lead to those changes, it was all inaction.
By March, I was really bummed, disappointed at myself, feeling like my only saving grace was my gentleman behavior, I wouldn't say depressed, just burned out by everything, then in April, I got a job, hoping I could use it as a means of distracting myself from these feelings and earn some money while I'm at it. The most I've done around that time was make an MMD inflation tutorial, which was basically the spark for me realizing I love working with computers, that helped out some people, heck, Imbapovi learned how to make spherical inflation thanks to that tutorial, helped me feel accomplished, can't say it helped everyone though. I did get comments that it wasn't clear enough for some people, like how there should be a video tutorial version, which is completely understandable of course, we all learn differently, heck, I can't read for Jack unless there's some sort of interaction going on like a video or a game. If I make a video tutorial, I'll be sure to let everyone know, anyways, where was I?
Throughout the summer, that's when things were really starting to change, I was debating on what to do with myself: Either go back to college and make things right, or find my own way to reach my goals without college, I decided to try to shoot for the 2nd one, that's the point when I realized that I want to be an IT Technician, just like my dad, whom I idolized for these skills.
Something about computers always filled me with fantasy, they're like digital putty that you can mold into whatever you want, whether it be for useful stuff, or personal pleasures, heck, I get my jollies out of fixing computer issues, it's why I wanted to go into game design, so I can make something for everyone to enjoy, but I wanted to go into IT first as a backup plan. If Game Design doesn't work out, IT will be the safety net. Around Fall, that's when I started to study for the A+ certification, I'm still working on it, not as fast as say Bapho did, whom said he'll help me study, but I'm making progress, heck, I bought 2 courses and have 1 course purchased for me by my work place, so I'll have that to work out, I got 4 notebooks at the moment, possibly 5 soon, 3 are for the courses, 1's for stuff I find online, and the 5th one will be for work studies, because I am now going to be an IT Trainee. Dad's making sure to light a fire under my butt so I don't slack off too much of course.
Still, I remember that moment I applied for the IT position, at first, I was rejected because I wasn't experienced enough, which was fine with, I knew it wasn't very likely, but something about my determination certainly changed their mind. I feel like it was because of my willingness to troubleshoot, I had to fix the card printer at work on my own since IT was gone, surveillance saw it, in a scenario where anyone else would've called for help, I decided to try to fix it myself, thanks to a mixture of determination and a knack for computers, I fixed it (to some degree), at least a temporary fix, I may or may not have broke a rule, but it still spoke about my tech skills, it's not just that of course, but at work, I've pretty much established myself as an unofficial tech guy when IT was gone... At least as far as the rules permit. Lol
Still, it's thanks to that, the IT Manager decided that it'll be a good idea to make me a Technician in training, it's now my responsibility to take in all this knowledge, get that A+ Certification, utilize it at work and keep on going. If I keep it up, then the first step of my lifelong plan can finally commence. It feels good, it really does, like I finally got control of life again, no longer is there any weight of anxiety holding me down from doing anything, I'm no longer scared to fail, nor am I filled with impatience to succeed, just eagerness for the future.
I'm not saying you should drop out of school, I just wanna say that even if college doesn't work out for you, there's always a way, maybe college is for you, maybe it isn't, but either way, as long as you take action for the better, then the scales will tilt in your favor in due time worst that can be done is nothing.
Maybe I will be a game designer like I've always wanted to be, maybe not, I'm just glad I can say I will soon enough, for now though, I'll gladly become an IT Technician as my first step, if I gotta be a technician for a few years, then so be it, I'm ready to get the experience I need.
Altogether, this year's definitely been full of its ups and downs, laughs were had, tears were shed, the death of my grandma has definitely been a heartbreaker, but at least she can rest easy knowing I'm finally doing something with myself rather than moping around like in the beginning of the year. I definitely can't wait to start my IT job in January.
Just had to let these thoughts out, figured it'll make for a decent inspirational story, even if it feels really cluttered, I've just been writing as I think. Lol
OH!
Probably should address this, since I've gotten questions about it, but I don't plan on taking Commissions/Art trades quite yet, I'm trying to figure out how to do it, I got like... I think 1 with one of my friends, he knows who he is, that frozen dude from the northern country, but other than that, I'm just sorting out my schedule. If you got any suggestions, I got a suggestions journal you can comment on, no promises I'll do it of course.
As for commissions, just a heads up, they might be a one at a time thing, and I'll do little background checks for PayPal ones to avoid any incidents of course.
Welp... That's that.
Hope everyone's enjoying themselves and stuff!
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Idea Jar
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Well, I figured I'd open one up since... Why not? Lol
I something have a hard time thinking of new characters or whatever to draw sometimes, so I figured why not ask the audience?
Suggest what you wanna see me draw, I can't make any promises I'll do it, but I like listening to ideas.
Just keep in mind:
1. I can consider furries/males, but chances of me doing them on my own desires is rare.
2. No kids, especially babies, or grandmas for that matter.
3. Nothing too gross or any nudity, in other words, I'm not gonna do any snot balloons. Lol
4. These are NOT requests, but suggestions, so don't get mad if I do someone else's idea over yours, I might consider it at a later time, but getting passive aggressive about it isn't gonna do anything besides annoy me.
5. No real people, personas of yourself are good to go.
OCs are welcome
I haven't thought of exact "what I'll do/not do"'s yet, so... Erm...
You can even suggest expansion types I haven't tried yet.
I won't do:
FNAF
Vore
Pregnancy
Thanos snapping on people (only if Minions are involved)
Minions
Lactating breasts (I feel like I might get a BE suggestion, so I figured I'll think ahead of time)
Suffering/Popping, I'm not fond of the pain train, it sucks, being flustered in a cute manner is good to go, but anything worse is just too far. Lol
So...
Fire away, hope this doesn't backfire. Lol
I something have a hard time thinking of new characters or whatever to draw sometimes, so I figured why not ask the audience?
Suggest what you wanna see me draw, I can't make any promises I'll do it, but I like listening to ideas.
Just keep in mind:
1. I can consider furries/males, but chances of me doing them on my own desires is rare.
2. No kids, especially babies, or grandmas for that matter.
3. Nothing too gross or any nudity, in other words, I'm not gonna do any snot balloons. Lol
4. These are NOT requests, but suggestions, so don't get mad if I do someone else's idea over yours, I might consider it at a later time, but getting passive aggressive about it isn't gonna do anything besides annoy me.
5. No real people, personas of yourself are good to go.
OCs are welcome
I haven't thought of exact "what I'll do/not do"'s yet, so... Erm...
You can even suggest expansion types I haven't tried yet.
I won't do:
FNAF
Vore
Pregnancy
Thanos snapping on people (only if Minions are involved)
Minions
Lactating breasts (I feel like I might get a BE suggestion, so I figured I'll think ahead of time)
Suffering/Popping, I'm not fond of the pain train, it sucks, being flustered in a cute manner is good to go, but anything worse is just too far. Lol
So...
Fire away, hope this doesn't backfire. Lol
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